Tea with Bach

7:27pm: Some kind of wonderful...

11:51am: periodic checkup

5:02pm: "In general you hope the truth will show up. Then it does. So what? Where do you go after you know the truth?"

-Charles D'Ambrosio, "All Aboard"

10:05am: "oh i dream...to heal your wounds...but i bleed myself, well i....bleed myself...."

11:39am: today's checkup ...

10:27am: "It is not our purpose to become each other; it is to recognize each other, to learn to see the other and honor him for what he is."

Hermann Hesse


...why is this so fucking difficult?

11:49am: evolutionary gag reflex
cycles. fractals. strange loops. philotic twine. binary dataEnergy transfer. everything, nothing, bits, bytes, sex, SEX! don't you know that this is one of those things. absorb. learn. intuit. those things that split people, turn some one way and the rest the other. prude or slut. loveHate everythingNothing. or both. borderlinesI can do both. find a tall spot to step out of this silly cartoon and revel in all the exquisitely mundaneProfound minutia on the way down. both. we have such appropriate names for things. cancer. Gestalt. we give ourselves hints, inject little bits of historiesFutures into language, culture, procedural memory. leaving ourselves notes to be opened later. slowly shoring up the connections. consciousness always on the tips of our tongues.

10:08am: ...and i find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad...the dreams in which i'm dieing are the best i've ever had...i find it hard to tell you, i find it hard to take...when people run in circles it's a very very...mad world....